One Hot Mess

So there are many things about this pregnancy that I was not prepared for. Everyone always tells you what to expect and you read the what to expect when expecting books but until you go through it you can never fully grasp the whirl wind of emotions and hormonal roller coaster you are about to partake in. And let me tell, I have been on one wild ride so far.

I wouldn’t say I’ve been overly loud, or mean or snarky to anyone, although I’m sure Clint would disagree, poor hubs they always get the worst of it don’t they? But I will tell you I am one big ball of emotions. I’m normally a sensitive person, I can get my feelings hurt at a drop of a hat, I know this about myself. I’m usually pretty good at talking myself out of it when I can feel I’m being unreasonable, but being pregnant there is no reasoning with yourself. You just brace yourself for the water works and ride it out.

I don’t think there was one day last week that I did not ball my eyes out on the way home from work and for what? Most of the time it was over stupid things, like I went to Walgreens and they didn’t have any butter so I started crying in the freaking frozen foods section, or I had a long day and was tired so I cried then, or I started thinking about Ralph or that damn blind seal and I completely lose it, it’s ridiculous. I can’t even walk in to a pet store now a days without tearing up, I start to feel sorry for all of the birds that are stuck in those small cages, or the mice that have no idea they are probably going to be bought just to be fed to some snake, or the poor little kittens who haven’t been adopted yet…….it’s my perfect storm for an emotional breakdown.

And I will say this, whatever your personality is before pregnancy is just magnified during pregnancy. Which I hadn’t really thought about, so all you ladies out there who haven’t had kids yet, brace yourself, it is unlike anything you’ve ever experienced. But in a good, totally worth it kind of way. J

And FYI another thing I was not prepared for was the changes to my hair. I had heard that it can get dry or oily and what not but no one felt the need to tell me about the “horns”. No one really mentions that part do they. I’m told it’s just baby hair or “peach fuzz” growing in but right now I look like I have two frizzy horns on either side of my forehead and it’s driving me crazy! I feel like freaking hell boy right now and it’s not cool. Baby H what are you doing to me! (Dramatic I know but it can’t be helped). Here’s a picture for your enjoyment. 

The whole thing is just tots ridic! (That’s for you Meagan) in laymen’s terms this means totally ridiculous apparently this expression is big in Kansas……those crazy Jayhawks. :)