I am officially in the third trimester! What what! I am both sad and excited all at the same time. I’m excited because we are getting that much closer to meeting our baby girl, sad because it’s almost over. As much I complained about the swollen ankles and the weird hair horns and the back ache, I’m really going to miss this. Not necessarily those things in particular, but I’m going to miss being able to feel her move around with her random kicks and jabs. I’m going to miss having her with me all day long. Even though she’s in my belly it’s nice to know she’s so close. It won’t be that way once she’s here and that’s okay it’s just a level of closeness that I wasn’t expecting.
New milestone! I’ve started getting the infamous leg cramps. They started last weekend and are on and off. Not to mention the shortness of breath. I swear last night you would have thought I had asthma, it just gets harder and harder to get a good solid breath sometimes. With all of these new developments it dawned on me that feasibly at any time she could be here. I really really hope she stays put until May, I want her fully baked, but that’s not always the case. My fear is that she’s going to come early and we won’t be ready. And at that point all sorts of what-ifs started to run through my mind. What if she’s super early? What if the room is not ready? What if my water breaks at work? (how embarrassing would that be) and then just the thought of actually going into labor scares the bejeesus out of me. This is my own fault really. In one of my email updates that tells me my weekly pregnancy progress there was a link to view an actual water birth. Color me intrigued……I always wondered how the water births worked, it seemed so serene being in water and relaxed…...there was nothing serene about it, nor was it relaxing. The woman looked in shear agony, not to mention the things I saw will haunt me until the day I die. How am I supposed to do that? Especially when you have a husband who is 6 ft 4 in and a mammoth, the thought of delivery his baby is scary! I hope she’s more like me in that aspect….of normal size.
I spoke of back ache earlier but I misspoke entirely.The back ache I've been experiencing this week can only be described as full blown back pain, there's no ache about it. We've graduated to a sharp shooting pain that at one point made this 30 year old weep like a baby. Starting around Sunday I started to get a sharp shooting pain run up my back every time I took a step. It was uncomfortable but bearable. Come Monday it progressed a little worse, I thought it was odd so I tried to stay off my feet for most of the day. Then comes Tuesday......full blown excruciating pain in my lower back region every time I walked. It was so bad that the only relief I got was if I didn't put a lot of pressure on my left leg, my right leg was fine, but for some reason stepping with my left leg caused the pain. So I found myself walking with a limp for most of the day and at one point I even considered dragging my leg. Anything to relieve the pain. I'm told this is normal "pregnancy" pains and that it will get better. I've tried a heating pad, Tylenol, sleeping differently, but nothing really seemed to work all that well. My doctor said it's just one of those things so I guess I'll have to live with it. I'm told it could be how she's positioned and that she might be on my sciatic nerve, but every time I try to move her she doesn't budge. Apparently she is comfy and is sitting tight. I just hope when all this is over with that I don't walk with a permanent limp.
I spoke of back ache earlier but I misspoke entirely.The back ache I've been experiencing this week can only be described as full blown back pain, there's no ache about it. We've graduated to a sharp shooting pain that at one point made this 30 year old weep like a baby. Starting around Sunday I started to get a sharp shooting pain run up my back every time I took a step. It was uncomfortable but bearable. Come Monday it progressed a little worse, I thought it was odd so I tried to stay off my feet for most of the day. Then comes Tuesday......full blown excruciating pain in my lower back region every time I walked. It was so bad that the only relief I got was if I didn't put a lot of pressure on my left leg, my right leg was fine, but for some reason stepping with my left leg caused the pain. So I found myself walking with a limp for most of the day and at one point I even considered dragging my leg. Anything to relieve the pain. I'm told this is normal "pregnancy" pains and that it will get better. I've tried a heating pad, Tylenol, sleeping differently, but nothing really seemed to work all that well. My doctor said it's just one of those things so I guess I'll have to live with it. I'm told it could be how she's positioned and that she might be on my sciatic nerve, but every time I try to move her she doesn't budge. Apparently she is comfy and is sitting tight. I just hope when all this is over with that I don't walk with a permanent limp.
Today I had my Gestational Diabetes test. I drank the orange stuff and I have to admit it wasnt' that bad. It tasted like a really sweet Sunkist, just like drinking soda. My checkup went well, she's growing normally, heartbeat was good, my blood pressure is good, weight gain is good. All around not a bad visit. Come Monday we'll know if I have GD or not, cross your fingers that I don't.
Stella is one active little lady. She is moving around a lot more now. Before I only felt her in the morning or late at night, now she is making her presence known throughout the day. It's a very surreal feeling that's hard to describe, but as odd as it feels it is pure heaven. J
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